It hit me this morning, as I was frantically rushing through some work and personal/family stuff so that I could go visit a sick friend later in the day -> I’m not dead inside.
Sometimes, when I’m dating (maybe most of the time) I wonder if maybe there’s something wrong with my heart. I date and go through the motions and wait… hoping to feel something for some new guy or another. And I blame myself when I don’t. Feel anything beyond casual fondness.
But my heart works fine. I have friends and family who I care deeply for. Who I worry about. Who I’ll turn my world upside down to spend time with, when they need me.
So if I’m not feeling it for a guy, it’s not because I’m dead inside. I’m just not feeling it for him.
Tags: feelings, friends, guy, Sick